i havE nO idea y i am still awake... cant sEem tO fall asleep...


bEen thinking alot while listening to my blOg song... gEtting abit emO... but still sOber...


i cant help it but to trust ppl i nOe easily and suspect ppl that are close to mE rather than giving them equal or mOre trust...


maybE i lack of security... afraid of letting ppl close tO mE tO pry open my innEr self and expose my vulnerability...


glass ceiling is somEthing i cant help myself but tO implement tO thE people around mE... unknowingly dOing it is a excuse... dOing it safeguard myself is the reason...


haix... i dunnO... juz emO nOw... :(

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hmmmmmm.. maybE its monday blues, maybe is mOrnin sickness... maybE? i dunno... fEeling sO emo nOw... sO decided to blOg =P


its anOther 9 days? to national day... and nO onE jiO mE oUt tat day... hahaz... guess its gOnna bE a stay homE holiday liao har? haix... dunnO y... its sO cOol... even juz fOr tat 10min? to stand/sit beside somEone and watch the firewOrks... be it frenz or wat not... its amazing hOw much fEeling it gives to onE...


onE bd party has gOne... and another is cOming tis sat... hahaz... pOcket is burning up... still... i guess its kinda wOrth it... cOz it brings frenz closer and help to destress? lol!


arG~! cant find the pics tat i tOok during last yr fireworks... tat timE was travelling in the car when my dad juz stop the car and we went down to takE pics of the fireworks... =x


no matter wat... pic is juz a fOrm of communication... the image wil be fOrever instill in my mind =D

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the worst kind of loVe is loving somEone and nt knowing whether tHey will lovE u back...



haix... turning emO @ these point... alot of thoughts... no answers...

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moviE nite marks the end of the successful weEk O!


hehez... a moviE titled "acCepted" were screened... its very interesting... think rated NC16 or PG bahx... coz got alot of "apporiate words used"... hahaz... very funny too... and touching @ the samE time... muz try to watch it =P


after the moivE and freshie went homE.... the rest of us were presented wif a cerT? lol! yup! and dance... hope its nt the last get together Dauntless will have...


DAUNTLESS RULES~!






hahaz... my fren yesterday told mi how to use light bands... he was saying... dont break all... break abit then shake... so the light will remain longer...

it leads mi to think... which is will better?
less colourful and dim... for a longer lasting future...
or let it be colourful and bright... and die off after awhile...
choices is for us to makE... live lifE to the fullest without regret... =D

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LOL!.... drinking milk tea and blogging early mOrning!


haix... dunno y after listening to the nice nice song seng send mi hoR... i suddenly feel very emo again... has been a long timE since i felt tis way... so shld i thx him? or shld i kill him for breaking my immunity against emotions?...


hmmmm... yesterday went to town wif vin to see jimmy @ his first day of work... i muz say the place is really isolated... lol! even its @ orchard road... dunno whether i am kia shu or wat... i only noE of the shopping centre "thE forum" yesterday... hahaz... after been there... i found out tat its a place for rich kids... coz there is GYM for CHILDREN! no kidding...


hahaz... been trying out different quizs, horoscope reading, and my beloved tarot these days... hmmmm... when ppl cant find a solution for themselves... faith or believe is wat they depend on... how truE isit? nt sure for u... but quite true for mi...


been thinking lately... how much i noE bout my frenz... nt saying the close close ones... eh... wrong phrasing... i mean except my very gd frenz... i seem to noE very less bout my other frenz... haix... timE to buck up! and if u have any problems... feel free to approach mi okiE?... even though i might nt be free @ the moment... once i am free will sure contact u back de...
91781499 is the 8 magic no. u shld think of when u are bOred or fustrated... no surcharge de... see i so gd! LOL!

kev yesterday show mi a quiz.. to sorta see compatibility amongs frenz... (hahaz we only 15% =P) but kinda think of it... if u are 100% compatible wif another person... does it really mean anything? can a future be guarantee? interest doesnt seem to equal communication...


all is juz some wEird emo thoughts i have...
seem stuipd... but got nth to post... so post it lor...


later is TP AS moviE niteX~! gonna be so FUN!
cYa... gotta run!

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all the sudden i am missing all my frenz...


sec sch classmate/frenz
ex-working place frenz
poly frenz
internet frenz???


wondering how are they doing... are they feeling gd and enjoying life...
different ppl will walk their own path of life...
they sometimes will cross into our path life... and make a impact?
we cant control how long they can move along wif us on tis path...
but still... like to say i really cherish all those who walk down the path wif mi so far...
even if its a few min... a few hr or a few yrs...


lol! tis blog song is making mi emo again... wahahahaz
but i really do cherish everyone of u out there~!

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haix...


how come whenever i get to read of one of my frenz blog... there is always tis sadness, sorrow and regret feeling that will linger where ever i go for the rest of my day...
one sided lovE... does it even consider lovE?
wats lovE then? a full of giving relationship from one party?... or juz a give and take relationship? in another word... transations of feelings and object... objectified? a word tat i kinda like tis few days =D


familiarity breeds contempt... a phrase tat one of my fren reminded mi... and taught mi...
y do we ALWAYS neglect the feelings of ppl who is closest to us... and only rmb them when we are @ lost or when we realise tat they are no longer there waiting... but had already move on in their lifes already...


sensitive? dunno leh... always will have tis weird feeling like being possess after reading my fren blog... maybe coz i understand it... or maybe coz i dont understand tats y i am feeling so angel like... wahhahaaz...

haix... wondering wat feelings does my blog portray... sadness? sorrow? happiness? laugher? joy? hope? believe? envy? or juz a PLAIN cold blog... wif no feelings invoked...


hope to colour tis blog wif joy, hope and LOTS of smiles...
but how often can i do it... how often can i escape frm the cold and dark reality and hide in tis warm and bright dreamland, blog of mine? even i could come in? how long can i say... how long can i decieve myself?


another 20 days to tat day... which is? hahaz... guess for urself?
sorry for being so philosophical... wat came over mi? i dunno... maybe too bored in sch? suddenly realise the importance of my laptop... my precious... hehez =D

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wOw!!!... didnt realise i was tat emo yesterday.... like someone die like tat... hehez... looking back... i realise i was indeed over reacting abit la... but... to tell the truth, i really treasure each and every friendship i had...
coz...
out of few millions... maybe billions of ppl around the world, i only get to know these few ppl...
by fate or by chance? i dunno... but wat i do noe is... each and everyone of the ppl i noe means alot to mi... even thought i might nt remember ur face or ur name (applied pri 5 and below... =x)... but ur foot print tat is left behind in my heart will always be there... deep or shallow, big or small...


omg! w8 a minute... y am i getting emo again? hahaz... emo-haox...


anyway... y am i still bloggin? shld be studying le... less then 10hr will be sitting for a paper... and today i still go out wif frenz to ECP(east coast park) and walk walk... sianz....


haix... back to studying le... last minute... will it help? hope so! pray hard! comE true? still dunno... lol!!!

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