weEeee... in sch post my blog again! hahaz... tis time more worst... in a sci lab... opps... =x hahaz... today post is so random and weird... coz i am the mad scientist... muhahahaa


anyway... was in the process of linking up... dont panic ok! trying my best le... if i accidently leave u out... i am very very very sorry... pls tell mi ok! hehez... getting lao ren chi dai these days... hahaz.. =D


sometimes... juz dont understand some of my frenz... hahaz... appear and disappear faster then speed of light... so irritating... =P... thx gd nt all =D


cant believe i am going cut my hair tml.... hahaz... its becoming a mob these days anyway... so gotta trim it... and in search of new salon... (y does all my gd hair stylist always disappear...)


been listening to tis old but nice song... the lyrics are below...=D and the mtv is super touching lor...








梁静茹-Fly Away
曲：岚奕邦 词：陈没／张天成

这一次是我自己为自己下的决定
很小心你说慢慢来别怕来不及
如果我还有一点点不安或者迟疑
我不会对你的反应那么好奇

多远啊其实也很不愿意
其实也不想回忆
谁没等到错过了流星
我们啊交集在这意外的假期
一定那里见过你 一定曾经梦见你

Fly Away 无穷无尽是你深邃的眼睛
看着你就可以让我茫茫人海里感到安定
Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
有一个人 有一颗心 才仅默默之中在那里

这一次连我自己都说我毫不悔意
爱上你终于我发现我还有勇气
为你我觉得遗憾的是我不够自信
不了解你说了一些话的用意

几乎是 所有时间在想你
快乐之后是压抑
有没有过这样的呼吸
幸福啊 只要一个眼神的交集
我们拥抱着自己 我们渴望着相遇

Fly Away 当我不顾一切无止尽追寻
是你的人 是你的心 日日夜夜陪我在这里

arG!!!! how to upload my music into the blog... can someone tell mi?


haix... y does things disappear when u need it the most... and appear when u dont really need it...


haix... does feelings really play a part?

haix...


so damn suay these days... juz went i finish all my quiz and preparing to PARTY! then i got tis stupid contagious disease... norovirus gastroenteritis... its actually a form of stomach flu... does it seem familiar? yES~! u are rite... its the same virus tat hit the pri sch ppl during the PSLE period...


doesnt the virus noe which is pri sch ppl and which is poly student? although its both "P" but no need to find mi also wat!!! arG!!! lol!


haix... can someone pls tell mi when can i stop taking anymore medication??? really sick and tired of it already!!!


anyway... sorry for complaining and complaining... but i really cant help it liao... my parents are so nt supportive of mi... ok... i noe it cost alot to see doctor... but its nt like i am living in luxury either... haix... when can i become fit and healthy? 10 yrs? 20yrs? or forever???


hmmm.... stuck @ home till sun sia... sianz..
sicky mi...

hahaz... cant believe it!!!


in sch blogging AGAIN!!!
hehez... so sry for nt updating tat often... was kinda busy the past few days... after going back to sch... learned tat i have miss lots of content and lots of quiz... so i have juz finish sitting for the ongoing PLUS the quiz i missed... weeEeeee...


hmmm... dunno whether to be happy or nt... tat i actually manage to squeeze into the "higher" room for debate training... gonna improve myself if i wanna stay in there... hahaz


feeling so bored now... have lots to do... yet doesnt feel like doing any of them @ all now... =x hehez


haix... trying to find someone to go bugis to shop wif mi for a formal shirt... but everyone seem so busy... if nt is @ oversea.... haix.. who is out there, free and likes to shop for clothes!!! (trying to post a advert?) hahaz... lol! i dunno... =P


hehez... time to really change my blog skin le.. wahahahaz... =D

hahaz... once i am well... i am actually running about liao... lol!!!


today juz went out to walk bout for whole day...


hahaz

weEeee.. finally rejoin my ranks... ok maybe demoted ranks... but still... i finally got back to sch!


hahaz... found out tat i miss a lecture quiz... Applied math, AM one... and before i have to worry bout tat, on tuesday is 2! yup! 2!!! lecture quiz... thermo.... dynamics,TD(tats how the lecturer pronounce... hehez) and organic chemistry, OC2... the worst is... its doesnt stop there... on thursday, there is ANOTHER lecture quiz... principle inorganic and physical chemistry(if i rmb full name correctly...), PIPC2
its damn sianz lor...
wif two weeks of debate skills to catch up to...
nt to forget my DRP! and MSC stuffs...
i am so so so dead... "where is my pen and paper!!!"


hahaz... sorry for complaining... but cant help it... its bursting out frm my mouth like a uncontrollable burp... did i say burp? hahaz =D


haix... dunno to envy or nt... coz 2 of my frenz... ok! 2 of my gd frenz... okok!!! 2 of my very very gd frenz (hey i already say "very very gd frenz" liao.. so dun complain anymore... hahaz =D)... are going on a overseas trip... u heard tat right... overseas trip... (they damn rich hao bu hao).... haix... so wish could juz tag along wif them now...
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but...
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cant...
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coz...
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if i go wif them... who is going to release the birds for them?... hahaz!!! coz may i present u....




hehez... all the best and gd luck!

hmmmm... todays entry basically is a self to self entry...
nth interesting...
read if u have nth better to do... close if u have something better to do...

LOL!!! wat am i typing... hahaz... anyway... feeling alot better le... going back to sch tml even though my mc is till next monday... coz... if nt going to die of early death... hahaz


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juz dont understand...

y does some people smiles means nothing @ all
while others could invoke some feelings out... happiness?
while a small group... or maybe juz few persons... it means a whole world to someone...

looks are often said is nt the judging factor for some...
yet those who say tat the most is those who judges the most...
looks may only seem unimportant... for those who cant see...

often, the person who we really want to chat wif...
are the ones we will w8 for them to be the first to talk...
shyness are often the reasons we give ourselves...
but is shyness really the reason?

we always like to say we are caring but other doesnt appreciate it...
however are we caring or are we actually controlling the other person...
care and control is kinda same...
wif juz a thin line inbetween...

are we giving because we wanna give?
or are we really giving to others wat we expect them to give?
or are we giving because we wanna them to give....

trying to find a nice template to change for my blOg... in search of templates...


these few days are very very bored! thx god someone invented msn...
but still i am still BORED!!!

hahaz... cant w8 to go out wif my frenz~!!! again!

finally i am conscious enuf to blog again...


hahaz... last nite i accidently turn on the long forgetten function of my going to die mp3... the RADIO!!! hahaz... still can rmb last yr tis time is the O lvl period and <越夜越美丽, DJ -于玲, station 100.3> has been a talk show i would never miss... rain or shine(actually is rain or dark... coz nite le)... haha....
so been listening to her talking again... hahaz... there is a faithful listener send in a touchful forward mail... hahaz... listening to it... and i can actually start tearing... hahaz... its very touching... 也许。。。(means maybe... ) haix...


there is alot of "maybe" tat is revolving around our life... lots of endings... lots of starts?... its all up to us to see how we wants to write our own life story... live how we wanna live... life is always full of choices... its never lack of it....
maybe if i had nt done tat... alot of sadness might have been advoided... but... if given another choice... i guess i would have still choose tis path bahx... coz... hahaz... better stop here bahx...


oh ya... thx for the concern!!! didnt noe so many ppl got view my blog... hehez... feel really honour.... thx~!
feeling abit better le... really thx for all the concern... =D


hmmm.... before i end tis entry... there is tis chinese song lyrics... very nice... some more new song wor... pls go view, character encoding, unicode to view! thx =D


☆无可救药☆
☆黄品冠☆
暗恋是一种礼貌
暗地里盖一座城堡
然后再当你的警卫跑腿和小猫
随时你要我重关电脑
随时你要我随传随到
买面包鸡排和水饺
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
你每次对着我笑
你的笑里面有毒药
我看着你出了神还丢掉了解药
可能你从来没感觉到
最好你永远感觉不到
爱上你越来越无可救药
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才慢慢体会到
幸福是被爱的人需要
一天一天越来越无可救药
一生一次爱你到无可救药
我才狠狠决定要
就爱吧就唱吧就不逃
爱你到无可救药

juz finish my operation... dizzy... drowsy... giddy... and maybe juz tired...



y muz u try to give sparks and extinguish the flame as it is juz form...
arG~!!!!!



feeling very very tired... will blog more tml bahx... coz i got one whole week of MC!!!
hahaz...

its around 11p.m now....


1 more hr before i start my fasting...


sianz... gonna starvE! till tml de 1030a.m =x


hahaz...


till tml morning! :P

hmmmm... tired day...


today morning went to a event to help take some photos =D
its so so so FUN!!!


hehez... slacking @ home today... wanted to go out... but simply to lazy... hahaz


hmmm... on the coming mon going to a minor operation... a very minor one... so i guess will have to skip a day or two of lessons... =( and miss debate too... arG!!! missing debate training for quite sometime le... really miss the debate trainings and my debate squad frenz...


talking bout frenz... i seem to noe alot of new frenz these days... hahaz... nt forgetting ppl frm ASC, who is a very friendly batch of ppl... and high tolerate levels ones also... hahaz... even i am pissing/irritating them off by keep snapping pictures away now and then.... (tats my job... cant help it) but they still remain calm... hahaz


maybe paparazzi will be gd job for mi? hahaz!!!
snap~! snap~! snap~!... flash~! flash~! flash~!...


hahaz... going mad... =D

IAMSOVERYPISSEDOFFANDDISAPPOINTED


ARG!!!
1. they said tat... Dr Lee will be planning a scan for mi today(fri) and tat i shld be ready to go to the hospital for scans.... so i push away all my commitment and stuffs to make time for the scanning to take place...
2. today morning 6am! shake mi awake to tell mi to go sch first... then halfway, if have scanning then leave... before tat, juz go to sch... i was so irritated tat i told them i already push away my stuffs to make it to scan and nt going to sch today and reasonz... bah bah bahz.... they dont listen and INSISTED I GO TO SCH!


spolit my DAY!!!
Y DONT THE ADULTS LISTEN IN!!!! although they listen to wat i say, they dont listen in... i already phrase my words so simply tat a 5yrs old shld have no problem understanding... and they simply juz dont get it!!!


i am so PISSED OFF AND DISAPPOINTED wif my mom... nt dad... coz he already doesnt understand mi... but my mom... thought tat she will understand my stands... and ARG!!! y does parents always feel wat they are doing is right for their children... when they dont understand their child @ all....


to them i am juz another irritating and irresponsible kid... but nt tat i wanna boost... how many ppl would study when they are in hospital while having to watch the blood flowing out of their wound... they most likely be thinking of stuffs like wats happening to them...


althought i have to agree to certain extend i am 17 and nt responsible enuf, but its my life, my time and my health tat we are talking about here...


FINE! since to them i am so nt responsible... y shld i even bother... going to sch today juz like they said... i am nt going to bother how am i going to arrange my time now... coz everything will come first... and the last is my health... since tats wat they are thinking...



VERY VERY PISSED OFF.... MIGHT CONTINUE BLOGGING IN SCH!

hmmmm... really wish to talk over the phone, chat catch up wif someone...=x hahaz.... the song Till the end is nt bad wor!.... hahaz =D

hahaz... so sianz... the pain is still nt getting better like the headache... but its getting worst... aRG!!!


tml going for a scan @ the hospital....
Thx! Dr Lee... even given the stituation, which is tat he, my doc frm TTSH is now in india... he arrange mi to do a scan tml rite after he come back... sry to trouble u!!!


hope the result is nt tat bad when it come out... =x
might be staying in the hospital... might... depending lor....


so bad news is tat i may nt be able to blog for quite sometime(juz when i thought i can have a smooth blog) hehez...


sorry for nt tell u tat on sms tis afternoon... hahaz... but u also didnt tell mi tat u have been continously reading my blog also loR =P... worst still... never taG!!!
hahaz =D


u know who u are... =x

hahaz... less then 6hrs... and i am back again... wif more action? nah! =P


woke up @ 4-430am in the morning wif intends of finishing up my debate stuffs... and in the end? hook onto friendster... and blogspot till now... hahaz.. wat am i doing!!! slacking away my time... hahaz... lol!


TODAYS A GD DAY! (i hope)


blog hopping* has been interesting these days... =D given mi some inspiration to do some stuffs... hehez... =P

hahaz... basically today is a very bad/gd day... hahaz

woke up @ 12pm... and lessons starts @ 1pm!!! like so sianz... then i rush to sch... and reach juz on time... hahaz...

then bOring sch...

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then meet some frenz for dinner @ town!

hahaz... was native enuf to try a machine, which is impossible to get the prize... but try like crazy... arG!!! when will i stop believeing in stuffs tat is impossible? arG~!!!

hahaz...


another crazy day...
(headache is much better... but the pain is nt subsiding... arG!!! need to control intake of panadol...)

haix... found a real big problem wif myself...


I DONT HAVE TIME MANAGEMENT!!!


arG!!! wasted away my time these days... now i have so much to do... in so little time given!!!
and the even though the headache is getting better... but the pain isnt... arG!!!


hope i dont land myself in a place i dont wanna find myself in, tis time of the yr!


by chance i happen to listen to a song... which i have been listening to (for a period only...) when i juz join poly... and found out tat i have really went through a lot that normal ppl dont imagine (dont think dirty!!! =P) ... and change a lot too (tats wat i feel la...) hahaz... wOW~!


How i wish i could stay like my sec sch times... so innocent... so carefree... so simple... so blur everytime... so NERDY!!! hahaz =D

ARG!!!


massive headache...


feeling very... very unwell...


hope will recover by tml...
haix... tml still got 2, 3hr lab sia = total 6hr a day in the lab!!!
after which still got 3hr of debate training...
so...
9hr of massive brain power...
nt to forget... 2hr of tutorial class inbetween (although tat doesnt use much brain power... but still use some also..) hahaz...


pls go to View, Character encoding, Unicode
To view below chinese meaningful text... (i spend some time type in one ok... dont think on the net got... hehez... ) =D


香烟爱上火柴就注定被伤害。。。 不要轻易说爱， 许下的承诺就是欠下的债。。。


老鼠对猫说我爱你， 猫说你走开， 老鼠流泪走开， 谁也没看见老鼠走后， 猫也流了一滴泪。。。 其实有一种爱叫做放弃。。。


如果你是我眼中的一滴泪， 那我永远都不会哭。。。 因为我怕失去你。。。


一只风筝一辈子， 只会为一根线冒险。。。


在爱的世界里， 没有谁对不起谁， 只有谁不懂得珍惜谁。。。

haix... something is wrong wif my blog!!!


there is suppose to be music playing... apparently... there is some lagging wif the link... ARG!!! need to go change it liao... haix... but for those who wanna listen to the music... try to w8 a while first? anyway... the song is worth w8ing for de la =D


hahaz... last nite i went to watch movie (sinking of japan) wif my fren... and its so funny sia... (nt the movie itself) coz of few reasons:

1. the couple in front of us... is trying to mimic the kissing scene... hahaz... and its like so... coz their action abit too over le... hahaz... wish to throw a note to tell them there is such a thing call bedroom... hotel... or wateva... u shld noe la... hahaz

2. there is this cute kid somewhere in the theater... everything will ask some funny qns... like... example... when there is kissing scenes "MOM! WHAT ARE THEY DOING! EEWWWW!"... coz the theater is quiet... so he is kinda loud (explained by caplock and !)... but still its very funny =D


hahaz... highly recommend TEAM salon @ vivo the stylist help mi to change my hair style... for better =D think will stick to there liao... currently there is only three salon there... so big wif so little salon... Jean yep, TEAM salon and Espirit salon... hahaz


later going out to celebrate my grandma dinner =D....
w8ing for my dad to reach home!!!


pics i taken when i reach home... 12.30am tis morning =D
lol!

FRIDAY!!!


yEAH!!!! the weekend is nearing... hahaz... kinda miss the weekends... coz i didnt get to enjoy them for the past month liao... wif all those stuffs going around... its driving mi crazy!!! weekend... faster come leh... hahaz!!!!


weeEeee.. coz later going out to cut/style? my hair!!! hahaz... *cross fingers* hope it will go out well... dont wanna look like freak... coz after tat still going to catch a movie de... hahaz... one stone kill two birds(cut hair and watch movie)... lol!!!


Life so unfair these days lor... the gd movies USED TO always be screen during exam period for sec sch... nowsdays its screen after their exam period... and because i am in poly now... the sec sch post exam period is mine sch term liao!!! SIANZ~!!!





hahaz...



tats LiFe...

another day has pass...

another post has been pass...






juz another sianz day in sch... hahaz =P

hahaz... blogging in sch now! =D
hahaz.. shld have extended my LOA(leave of absence) to 5pm... haix... now coming back to sch for one hr of lessons only... tats like so... SIANZ!!!

hahaz... but going to debate "lessons" later... hahaz... its kinda interesting to be in the debating club of TP.... learnt alot of stuffs... and gd to use wif my parents too... hahaz...
hEy!!! @ least it is a way of non-violence method to solve parental problems rite? hehez =X
but tats nt my reasons of joining debate la.... its actually because i wanna learn something new for myself... a skill tat i am actually passionate bout... and nt to use it against other ppl (unless really cant help it...)... LOL!!!!

so sianz... still got 1hr before time due... for mi to go debating "lessons"... hahaz... =D



sometimes... life is really so unpredictable... so strange... so random... hahaz

juz another random post...