hehez... been a long long timE since i updated my blog hur....


lots of stuffs happen....

went for an interview @ venture erA... which is damn stupid... LOL! coz think they arE doing those one ask 3 ppl join, then 3 ppl ask 3 more which is = 9 ppl join stuffs... and the product they are selling, aRE SHIT STUFFS! yup... its really shit stuffs... and as a CHEMICAL ENGINEERING student, i saw it rite throught... wahahahz (thx god my module got onE is water tech)... so if somE one call u to go Eunos MDIS, dont go! waste of timE and $$$


hmmmm....
i also started working @ jimbo resturant @ safra country club... hate the assistance manager... she dunno y keep see mi buay song... then madE mi do shit jobs... arG! but the staffs there is very very gd! =D hahaz... let mi drink the $4 drink for free and send mi homE... wahhahahaz... so gd ritE?


hmmmm....
going to watch pirates later! wahahahaz... 3hr of non-stop action pack moviE... hope i am nt disappointed... wahahahaz... getting all my pics frm my frenz later too... so the next post finally got pic to upload le... stay tunE~!

4 Hr before, when i was @ sch.... i did a colorgenics test...

You feel that everything is going against you and you are worn out and exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling. You are trying to protect yourself but at the same time you are hiding your feelings, hoping that by so doing, you can avoid exposing yourself to attack. Hopefully this will give you the chance to get on with your life. Nevertheless, you should be very careful to try to avoid stirring up any opposition which might endanger your plans:

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.

Your stress and anxiety are a result of an emotional disappointment. It could well be that the emotional relationship is no longer running smoothly and you have come to the end of your tether. On the one hand you would like to free yourself from this relationship altogether, yet on the other hand, you don't want to lose anything nor risk the uncertainty of throwing away something - something that's precious, something that could be the 'Real Thing'. Perhaps for the first time in your life you really don't know which way to go and it is these contradictory emotions that are causing you the untold stress. You are pretending to the world that you don't care but even this air of pretence is causing you much heartache.

You are moody and depressed at this time but it will pass. All of your hopes and dreams seem to have gone astray and you are fearful of planning further for the future. Disappointment at the non fulfilment of your hopes and the fear that to formulate fresh goals will only lead to further setbacks have resulted in considerable anxiety and you try to escape from this by withdrawing into yourself. But that is not the answer. You have the power to succeed, believe in yourself... all is possible to him who believes.

less then 3 min ago... did the test again...


You are under considerable stress and you are almost about to 'blow your top' but you are fortunate enough to be able to exert control. Control is the name of the game and it is so good to realise that whatever the situation may be a this time - it will pass. You need to get away from everything for a while and if you do, you will find that, strangely enough, it will seem that most of your problems and situations will seem to wash away, just as the sea may wash away 'footprints' in the sand.

Being impulsive and irritable, your desires and needs are paramount. You do things with insufficient thought - with little regard to the consequences that may follow. As a consequence of this attitude, you may be experiencing stress and conflict.

You are a very choosy person - demanding and exacting in your emotional demands and very particular in your choice of partner. You are self-sufficient and as a result of this overbearing nature you find it difficult to establish any depth of deep physical or mental involvement with members of the opposite sex.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You are carried away by other people's enthusiasm and looking for that idealised relationship, be it in a business or personal situation, which you are able to share with a mutual depth of understanding. You have lowered your defences in the past and you have been hurt, so you are now extremely wary of being exploited. You are still ready to trust people on the condition that they are prepared to offer you proof of their sincerity.

You wish to safeguard yourself against criticism or conflict and to embed yourself in a protected situation. You are a difficult person to relate to and very difficult to please.

hoW truE? quite bahx =D
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for tat few months... after i thought i have achievE my immunity... i actually has nt..



thoughts has becomE unbearable...


its driving mi nuts... goinG crazy soon!


lol! wat am i typing?


in sch sianz...

the worst kind of loVe is loving somEone and nt knowing whether tHey will lovE u back...



haix... turning emO @ these point... alot of thoughts... no answers...

Labels: emo-haox? haha

hehez... juz updated my blog! wif somE new emO songs... heheez...


dunno y... has been feeling kindA emO these few days... emo haox! hahaz...


have i offended ppl these few days.. sorry hAR!


finding the cheerful self tat has long gonE into hidding...


hehez... listen finish to all my songs bahx... nt bad in switching to emO mood de woR! hehez... gtg... will update again soon =P

another sian day in sch... lots of projects... projects, deadlines, project, deadlines... arG!!!


i wanna play! i wanna go out! i wanna work! i wanna...


crazy le... dont mind mi...

its pass 1 week since i posted... arG!!! lots of projects are squeezing mi dry... tml... i mean later the day... i am suppose to go for a job interview... hahaz... thx justin~! hahaz... thx soo fang also... thx lots who help mi in finding job =D


need to work coz my budget is running damn low... need to study coz my results are nt improving as i hope to... need to meet up wif frenz coz i wanna noE them better... need to get more involve in CCA, to meet more ppl! =P


pulling myself in so many directions... is it worth it? YES!
maybe? still deciding... LOL!


my fren send mi a sms which is so truE... be who u aRe and enjoy the process... maybe i shld change my mentally...



POLY LIFE IS FUN...
WILL BE FUN...
CAN BE FUN MAR?



my fren recently send mi somE nice songs.. will try to add them to my blog music asap... strange thing is something is wrong wif my player... cant seem to play finish the song i loaded... aRG!!! troubleshooting have to w8... i guess..


kkz... better stop here and get back to my project?


tis weekend k-ing still on maR? already postpone very long le leh...


lol!

was thinking wat to post for my 100th blog entry for a long long timE...


didnt really expect it... but... seem like its another sad entry i guess....


was wokE up by mum tis morning around 4am... (slept @ 3am last nitex)... =X


anyway... was told tat my grandma has pass away @ bout 3.30am... haix... so we was kinda rush down and to see her for one last timE....


@ my relative house, where she past away... i was thinking...


how comE i am nt shedding a tear... i noE its kinda evil nt crying... but... juz feel tat wats the point of crying... its nt likE it could bring her back to lifE again? she was suffering juz before she pass on... so is it something tat we shld be glad since she is nt suffering pain anymore... or shld be be sad tat she has left us...


haix... still rmb the days where i would stay as far away as possible... as i dont like smokers... but... kinda think of it now... its kinda childish? haiz... regret? alot!


seem like my father side family is falling.. and falling apart fast...
when my granddad pass away... less then 1 week later, they are discussing bout $$$ issue... as my grandma is still present then... it wasnt tat bad... i cant believe wat the future is going to be now...



wat am i typing... i dont really noE...

wat am i feeling... i really hope somEone can tell mi...

wat am i doing? can somEone help to show mi?


ANYWAY SORRY GUYS!! I CANT ATTEND THE BD PARTIES AND GO OUT WIF URALL TIS WEEK... REALLY SORRY... HOW BOUT NEXT WEEK?


Collin Raye - Love Me lyrics

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."