was thinking wat to post for my 100th blog entry for a long long timE...


didnt really expect it... but... seem like its another sad entry i guess....


was wokE up by mum tis morning around 4am... (slept @ 3am last nitex)... =X


anyway... was told tat my grandma has pass away @ bout 3.30am... haix... so we was kinda rush down and to see her for one last timE....


@ my relative house, where she past away... i was thinking...


how comE i am nt shedding a tear... i noE its kinda evil nt crying... but... juz feel tat wats the point of crying... its nt likE it could bring her back to lifE again? she was suffering juz before she pass on... so is it something tat we shld be glad since she is nt suffering pain anymore... or shld be be sad tat she has left us...


haix... still rmb the days where i would stay as far away as possible... as i dont like smokers... but... kinda think of it now... its kinda childish? haiz... regret? alot!


seem like my father side family is falling.. and falling apart fast...
when my granddad pass away... less then 1 week later, they are discussing bout $$$ issue... as my grandma is still present then... it wasnt tat bad... i cant believe wat the future is going to be now...



wat am i typing... i dont really noE...

wat am i feeling... i really hope somEone can tell mi...

wat am i doing? can somEone help to show mi?


ANYWAY SORRY GUYS!! I CANT ATTEND THE BD PARTIES AND GO OUT WIF URALL TIS WEEK... REALLY SORRY... HOW BOUT NEXT WEEK?


Collin Raye - Love Me lyrics

I read a note my Grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me
He said, "Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma's daddy didn't like me none, but I love your Grandma so.

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter, and this is what it said :

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away
In the doorway of the church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray
I know I've never seen him cry in all my fifteen years
But as he said these words to her, his eyes fill up with tears

"If you get there before I do
Don't give up on me
I'll meet you when my chores are through
I don't know how long I'll be

But I'm not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then
Til I see you again

I'll be loving you
Love, Me."